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dead blog

2008-11-05T14:25:00.007+08:00

Haiz....... My blog is so dead..

I'm just TOO lazy to upload anything!!!

After Erin join us, I'm getting more and more tired and more and more lazy.

How I wish I can just sleep thru out the whole day.

No need to bring Nicholas to school.

No need to look after Gracia and Erin.

Just let me have a really good night sleep.

Haiz....... Tired.. Tired... Tired....

Can anyone understand how I feel?

How I wish I have a maid.

I'll just throw all the house chorse to her.

Then, my duty just to look after Nicholas, Gracia & Erin.

I pity Aunty Jenny.

She need to look after her Hubby, Gervian & Xiao Feng.

And also, she do all the house chorse work.

Not even that.

She also have a part time work and she also take up some course.

What A Wonder Woman Is She!!!

爷爷我好想你

2008-09-29T12:47:00.003+08:00

爷爷，我好想你。

你知道吗？我的佳恩出世了！

我多莫希望你能看到她满月。

就像诗恩的满月一样。

我到你家给你蛋糕。

你还说诗恩是个很温顺的孩子。

一切都发生的太快了。

去年的今天，你还在。

可是今年的今天，你已经与耶稣同在。
前个礼拜你过世。上个礼拜我生孩子。

一切都好像是按排好的一样。

或许神知道我可能会放不下。

所以安排了佳恩给我。

让我不会想太多吧。

爷爷，我永远爱你也会永远把你放在心中。

finally i gve birth ler!!!

2008-09-29T12:33:00.002+08:00

我的佳恩诞生了！！！！！！！

改天才upload 她漂亮的照片给你们看！！！！

gve birth liao ler!!! but dunno whn!!!

2008-09-24T01:12:00.002+08:00

我要去生孩子了！！！！！

可是！！！！不知道几时！！！

哈哈！！！哈哈！！！

耐心的等吧！！！！

神的平安

2008-09-20T12:45:00.007+08:00

感谢神！！！
神的平安一直都在我的心。
虽然当我看着我的爷爷被推进火化时，
我只是流眼泪。
不像我在医院时，
哭得上气接不到下气。
那是我哭得最伤心的时候。
那时我是真的很不舍得爷爷的离去。
可是感谢神！！
神安排了坚强的Aunty Jenny在我身边。
安慰我，鼓励我。
自己已经够伤心了。
还要照顾和安慰另一个人。
Aunty Jenny太厉害了！！！

也很感谢神。
安排我的家婆在我身边。
这一个礼拜来，
都是我家婆帮我看我的两个孩子。
虽然她知道他们很调皮
可是不从没拒绝我。
我从早上10AM+出门到晚上11PM+
有时到家时都快要12AM
她都没有讲过我
还问候我爷爷的病情。
我在想她都没看过爷爷
她会关心爷爷。
为什么爷爷的亲生儿子
好像一点感觉都没有呢？
真为爷爷感到悲伤。

不过，一切都过去了。
爷爷已经得完全的医治了！！
爷爷拥有他帅气和俊俏的样貌了！！！
也有回他健康的身体了！！！

爷爷再见

2008-09-18T15:57:00.003+08:00

爷爷，
明天我就看不到你了。
如果可以的话，
我好想你能在我身边。
我是有多莫的不舍你的离去。
可是看到你在医院时，
我又多莫的希望你是不用受那些折磨的。
我好矛盾。
我怕明天我会支持不住。。。哎。。。

我好羡慕Nicholas.
他可以喜乐又大声的告诉别人，
“我的老祖父回天家了！”
他是多莫的单纯。
这是我做不到的。
虽然我很不舍得
可是我有平安。
也知道有一天我们会再见！

不舍得

2008-09-14T21:29:00.007+08:00

爷爷，
我好不舍得你。
以前，老觉得你不爱讲话。
可是每次告诉你我要吃 ice-cream 时，
你一定会买最贵的给我。
然后，都叫我不要告诉其他人。
你永远都会把最好的给我。
可是现在看到你受折磨，
我却什么都帮不到你。
只能默默的在你身边看。
看到我的心很痛也碎了。
可是你哪些不孝的儿子，
还拐你要死，死不去还带给他们麻烦。
要他们时常的赶来医院。
我知道你是为了我们才要动手术的。
你是惜身自己，方便我们。
你是因为爱我们多过自己。
就算我有多莫的不舍，
我也不要看到你在那里受折磨。
我知道耶稣会带你到一个很美的地方。
那里是没有痛苦、悲伤、烦恼的。
你一到了那里，就只有快乐。
我知道你也不舍得我们。
但是，我相信有一天我会和你在乐园再见。
我会永远把你放在心理面。
你是我最爱和尊敬的爷爷。

I HATE U!!! ACTOR!!!

2008-09-05T00:46:00.005+08:00

KOK LONG HUA!!

I HATE YOU!!!

DON'T BE AN ACTOR IN FRONT OF OTHERS!!!

WHEN HE'S AROUND FOR YOU TO SHOW CARE AND CONCERN, WHEN THE HELL ARE YOU?!

WHEN HE'S LAYING ON THE BED,

YOU BRING ALONG YOUR

NEIGHBOUR TO SHOW THEM

HOW MUCH YOU CARE FOR HIM?!?!

WHY DON'T YOU SHOW THEM

HOW CRUEL AND HEARTLESS YOU ARE?!

THOUGHT YOU LOVE CURSING

YOUR OWN FATHER TO DEATH?!

WHY DON'T YOU CURSE YOUR OWN FATHER IN FRONT OF OTHERS?!

WHY PUTTING ON AN ACT NOW?!

TELL YOU!!

IF SINGAPORE LAW ALLOWS ME TO KILL SOMEONE I HATE MOST,

YOU WILL BE THE ONE!!!

YOU ARE NOT FIT TO BE MY FATHER!!!!

I RATHER I'M NOT BORN INTO THIS WORLD.

IF I KNOW I HAVE A FATHER LIKE YOU!!!!

种什么，得什么！！！

我会对你就像你如何得对你爸爸一样！！

因为这是你给我的“好”榜样！！

做孩子的，就有样学样！！

2008-07-30T00:22:00.008+08:00

hohoho!!! i n only crazy mummy is here again!!!

as i promise in my previous post that i'll update the sunday bday celebration of Ps IZ.

so nw.. here it goes!!!

ExCiTeD nIcHoLaS!! XiAo FeNg Is GiViNG aLL HiS bLeSsInG tO Ps IsSaC!!

GUAN LIN!! WAT IS UR HAND DOIN????

B'day 'BoY', bLoW CaNdLe

Ps Issac's impression is try to tell the cake 'I'm Sorry. I hve to cut u'

OuR bEsT CoUpLe iN ChUrCh!!

Ps Iz bday celebration

2008-07-28T13:23:00.002+08:00

hohoho!! it's me again.. the one n only crazy mother here.. LOL!! ytd wen to Aunty Jenny hse wif my hubby to celebrate Ps Issac's bday. we havin a durian feast on our own.. LOL!! aft that we head to a coffee shop to hve fish head steamboat. Guan Lin drop a few pcs of her fav chicken wing on the table coz she cnt bite it usin her mouth. LOL!! she's eatin it wif spoon n chops. haha... see the way she eats makes me wanna laugh!! hohoho!! will try to upload sum pics ASAP!! bbyyeee~ ^_^

Zoo Outting

2008-07-25T09:35:00.032+08:00

Ho! Ho! Ho! It's me again!! Nobody else but me!! hehe!!!
Went to SG Zoo with Gervian, Xiao Feng, Siang Ming, Bao Bei Nicky & Bao Bei Gracia on 19/07/2008!! We enjoy alot but also veri tired. haha....
Keep walking and walking. Until Siang Ming can't take it. He wanted to take the tram ride. Haha....
The day before(which is Friday), I already advise him to take the tram but he insist not.
So, I let him be. Coz my friends been there before. They told me to take the tram ride coz the area now is getting bigger.
It's really hard for you to finish visiting all the places by WALKING.
But since my Hubby don't want to take my advise. So I'll just let him be.
It's hard for me to share with you all by words. So I'll just let the pics speaks for me.

THE JOURNEY BEGIN..........

my fav snake!!

2008-07-11T12:45:00.001+08:00

You might like it. This is hilarious... ..even an Englishman could not construct sentences using numeric ..... Ah Kau was asked to make a sentence using 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9,10.
Not only did he do it 1 to 10, he did it again from 10 back to 1. This is what he came up with.....

1 day, I go 2 climb a 3 outside a house to peep. But the couple saw me, so I panic and 4 down. The man rushed out and wanted to 5 with me.. I ran until I fell 6 and threw up. So I go into 7-eleven and grabbed some 8 to throw at him. Then I took a 9 and try to stab at him. 10 God he run away. 10 I put the 9 back and pay for the 8 and left 7-eleven. Next day, I called my boss and told him I was 6. He said 5, tomorrow also no need to come back 4 work. He also asked me to go climb a 3 and jump down. I don't understand. I am so nice 2 him but I don't know what he 1.

Sad but Grateful

2008-06-23T22:32:00.001+08:00

hello!! Long time didn update liao!! hmm.. so many things happen.. My grandpa actually accept Christ as his saviour!!! Isn't it touching?! LOL.. but really.. last time no matter hw hard i spread God's word to him.. he will juz keep quiet n didn reply me.. Aunty Jenny did the same to him.. BUT he scold her.. he keep telling us.. "if i wanna receive Christ as my saviour, I'd hve done so long ago!!" so we juz keep quiet.. let him be.. but Aunty Jenny nvr gve up in her prayer.. she keep pressing on to God.. asking God to soften my grandpa's heart.. finally!!! dis day has come!!! hoho....

but.. sad things happen to him also.. he was diagnose with cancer... i was nt surprise wif the news coz i noe his diet well.. but i'm really grateful that coz os dis illness.. he finally soften his heart to accept Christ!! i feel so guilty that during his radiotherapy, i wasn't there with him as he doted me alot.. during dis period.. he keep telling Xiao Feng that he dun tink he can live long.. haiz... aft hearing that.. it really makes my heart break........

512 Tragic

2008-05-21T10:44:00.002+08:00

helloooo!! Long time no blog.. LOL!! Out of a sudden, I got the fear in me. So afraid that the 512 tragic will happen in Singapore. After knowing the tragic happened at China, Si Chuan. I ask myself:"If this day fall upon me, what will i do? How will i react?" After asking myself these, I ask myself 1 last question..:"What have i done for God?" I realise that i done nothing for God. I'm not like Aunty Jenny. If she lives in the old testiment, I'm sure that she will be one of the disciple. Or maybe she is another Apostle Paul. Hmm.. Maybe should name her Apostle Jenny!! LOL. Died for the sake of the gospel. I really feel so shame of myself. Seriously, I didn't do anything for God. I tried to spread gospel to my friends but everytime all my words fall on deaf ears. After trying a few times, I stop it. coz I find that no matter how hard I try, you just won't accept what I said. So no point keep pressing on. You might think that I' a lady who give up easily. Indeed I am. It's not that I can't go thru difficult times, guess I'm just a little woman with little faith.

finally, my own house n own property!!

2008-04-11T12:28:00.002+08:00

FINALLY!!! This day has come!! I finally got my own home!! It's just a place where there's only Siang Ming, Nicholas, Gracia and I... Finally, I got my freedom back!! Hmm.... not really that i stay with my parents-in-law. They never interfere with my lifestyle. I can hang out late with my frenz and come back home late. They also won't question me. This is one thing I'm really grateful about. But after all, having my own home is my dream. I believe all married couples have the same dream!! On 8/4/2008, my husband and I went to HDB hub to select our dream home. Haha!!!!!! Really happy about it. My mother-in-law tag along with us. I admit that at first I'm nt very happy obout it when Siang Ming told me that her mother is coming along with us. I asked him 'why?' He reply..'I don't know'. Though I didn't ask in a rude or nasty voice tone but I was actually thinking... ' This is things between Siang Ming and I... Why must u tag along.' So, while we were about to go off, out of a sudden she didn't say she wanna tag. I was surprise. Then, I ask Siang Ming.. 'Though your mum is coming along with us?' He also reply.. 'I don't know'. (aiya!! whatever things u ask him, he will sure reply you..'I don't know.' No point asking him..) I ask him, 'Do you really know what to do when we reach HDB hub. This time round he didn't reply 'I don't know'.. He reply.. 'Ok la..' Den I told him.. if he doesn't have the confidence what to do when we got there... you better gate your mum to come along with us. As to play safe coz' we are first timer. So, he called his mum n ask her to tag along. once we got there, she help us alot by looking at the teletext.. checking out our choice is it being selected by others. Frankly speaking, I didn't do much things. I just pray to God. Asking God to give me the unit which is plan by Him. Really grateful for the help of my mother-in-law coz she also help me look after Nicky and Gracia while we need to sign some importants document. ^_^

2008-03-31T12:21:00.028+08:00

Hey Hey.. it's me again!! nth much to tok abt.. the pics will speak for me.. Enjoy!!

Look @ wat nicky had done to his arms!!

another arm!!

Look @ his face!!

nice?!

Crazy little boy!!

Act cute!!
New Spect!!
Big sunglass..
Father & Son
Sweet Little Gracia
Gracia look so serious!!

New Pacifier!!

Sweet & Blur look!!
Look sad~~
Cute Gal!!
Smile!!
Happy Baby!!
Nice Butt!!

Independent Gal!!

Look at her tongue!! Long?!
New Spect again?!
Look like a china baby..

Jabez & Gracia

My Beloved Bobby

2008-03-08T21:26:00.003+08:00

Was feeling down on 6 March 2008 which is on Thursday. coz' my favourite pet, Bobby is gone forever. Though I keep saying that he is not the pet I really want but at least I did what a pet owner must do after getting a pet. I look after him, discipline him, spending most of time with him. So we actually build up our bonding. I start to like him after i bought him back. When he was at the age of around 5 months old, he was dignosed with a kind of skin porblem.. (sound like my son.. LOL) But after that, he recovered from it after seeing the vets. But things change.. His skin go bad.. So bad that he hve to be hospitalize for 1 week. And it cost my grandpa around $200-$300. My grandpa don't mind as long as it can cure him. So after spending a week in the animal clinic, it seems to have a little help. But that don't last long. Last week Saturday, Siang Ming and I bring him to the vet again due to his skin goes bad again. When the vet saw him, he told me that his skin is bad. So they do a scalp test for him to see what actually cause his skin to go bad. After checking him, the vet told me that his skin problem can't be cure because of his body immune system. His born to have a weak body immune system that's why the skin keep going bad. After visiting the vet, I told my grandpa about what the vet have told me. He keep all my words in mind. After giving a long thoughts, he called me on Wednesday which is on the 5 March 2008. He told me that he want to put Bobby to sleep. At that very moment, I was lost of words. I stay calm and ask him 'why'? He told me that he's afraid that if anything were to happen to him, nobody can take care of him. And he don't want to see him suffer from his skin problem again. So i help him to call afew vet's clinic. Their prices are quite high. End up he decide to call let the SPCA to handle this matter. So the next morning which is on the 6 March 2008 9:22am, I called down tot he SPCA to inform them that I've decide to surrender my pet. So the admin lady took down all mine and Bobby's particulars. She told me that she will give my grandpa a call before she sent his man down to fetch Bobby. But she lied. They didn't call him. My grandpa actually intend to let Bobby to have his lunch first before seeing him off. But the SPCA member didn't give him a call and he couldn't feed Bobby and they just took him away. and my grandpa called me at 12:02noon time. He cried on the phone telling me that Bobby is gone. I tried to stay calm in order to console him. I told him that leave us is a good solution for him coz he no need to suffer anymore. So he keep quiet for awhile and we end the conversation fast. After hang up the phone. I cried.... I really miss him alot. Though the time we spend together is just 3 years but we are really close. Still remember that when I'm talking with my grandpa and we start to raise out voice. We actually joking with each other. Bobby actually jump onto my grandpa's lap andt start licking his mouth and ears. We were surprise by his action. So both of us decide to test Bobby. I told my grandpa raise his voice at me as if he's scolding me. And Bobby did the same thing again. That was when I realise that Bobby is trying to protect me. He's tryin gto stop my grandpa from scolding me. I was so touch. But now.. this thing won't happen again... But that scene will always be keep in my mind......

#04-176 bad guy

2008-02-13T21:24:00.003+08:00

Today, my day is so boring and tired. I don't know what happen to me. This few days have been sleeping for long hours in the afternoon nap. Must sleep at least 3 to 4 hours. I don't what's wrong with me. Guess I'm really just too tired.

Well, today I make a police report. Regarding a guy staying under the same block as me. He actually threw out small little flower pots. Is for deco used. Quite small in size like those small catus pot. He threw out the pots which is made of clay. He threw out not just 1 but 3 to 4 pots. When the moment I saw it, I'm so angry. Coz' seriously, it is really very dangerous. He actually trying to warn one of the neighbour who is stayin right underneath my house. And that stupid guy is staying right underneath that neighbour. Which is mean I'm staying at the 6th floor. He stay at the 4th floor and he is trying to warn the 5th floor neighbour. Must be thinking hw he warn that neighbour right?! He actually throw the pots upwards. So most of the pots landed on the 5th floor where there's a space for us to place our air-con compressor. But some landed on the ground floor. At that very moment, the first thing came across my mind is to call the police n report this matter to them. But also at the same time. I'm asking myself..'Am I busybody?' But end up I still call the police. After calling them, they sent out some police officer to check.

As just now I mention about he is trying to warn the 5th floor neighbour. That is all my guessing. That 5th floor neighbour is actually chopping something. I admit that it's quite noisy. But this thing happen during in the day time. Not night time. But even if it happen in the night time, he got to right to threw out small flower pots as a warning to them. Some more, as a housewife (I guess) we stay at home to prepare food for our kids is normal to have a little bit of chopping noises. Coz' you see, we need to chop the garlic into small piece so that we can fry it or maybe she is chopping some meat or poultry stuff. This are all my thinking too. If he really not veri happy about it, he can go up to the 5th floor neighbour and have a nice talk with her. But I don't think he will have a nice talk with her. Coz' from this matter, can tell that this guy is a short-tempered person. No patient. You all must be thinking that hw come I keep saying is a guy right. Coz' i saw his palm. Is a man's palm. So I'm very sure that it's a guy who threw out the small floer pots. Think I sahll stop here. Good night and God bless.

God watch over all things. include our belonging.

2008-02-11T22:37:00.000+08:00

Hey hey!!! It's me again!! Hohoho!!! Well, today I encounter God's peace. The story is like this. Today, I went to Sembawang BLK 400+ to rent TVB drama series. So after that, we went over to Sun Plaza to have out high-tea at MOS burger resturant. While he is ordering food, I bring Nicky to the ladies. He want to pee. So, I bring my Adidas handbag along with me. While waiting for him to finish his business, I left my bag above the toilet bowl where there is a small little space for us to put our things. After he finish his business, I actally forgotten to take my bag with me. So I just walk out of the cubicle and bring Nicky to wash his hand. But i notice something is there's a girl standing outside the cubicle. She was about to enter that cubicle but after she look around, she actually stand outside the cubicle. At first, I was thinking 'why this girl so funny? Don't go in? Stand outside the cubicle to SMS people? What a funny person?' But actually I'm the one who is funny la! Forgot to take the bag. So I just walk out of the ladies and join my hubby. After we finish the food, we left the resturant. While walking towards the 7-11, my hubby ask me about my bag. I told him i left it inside the resturant coz' i remember wrongly. But after he went back to the resturant to check it, he didn;t see anything. It was then I remember that i left it inside the ladies. So i went back to check it. My bag is GONE!!! But know what? I don't feel anxious about it. Just feel that.. hmmm.... Peace. that's all I can say. I thank God for giving me the peace and wisdom to let me know how to handle it. So, I went to the NPP to make a report. The police ask me about the IMEI no. I told him that I didn have it with me. But I save it under the Sony Ericcson website. So he told me to go home and check it out aft that give him a call. Once I reach home, I check the IMEI and give him a call. On the other hand my hubby is helping me to call all the DBS bank, singtel and NTUC. Coz' I need to block all my cards. Though I'm not a rich person but just to play safe. After doing all the neccessory things. I go and do my stuff.. watching my TVB series drama. And I nearly fall asleep. While watching TV, the NPP officer called my home and inform me that somebody came and make a Lost and Found report. And they believe that the bag belongs to me. So my hubby and I went down to the NPP again to check out all the items. And YES! It belong to me!! I thank God that he not only watch over but also our belonging. Thanks God that all my items remain the same. Nothing lost. But that person who took my bag he/she actually use my HP to call the SMRT cab and he/she even try to make a video call to the church office! At that very moment!! a words came across my mind.. CRAZY!!

Feeling better now

2008-02-09T16:48:00.001+08:00

Hello everybody!! hmm... Feeling better now after my last blog. coz' I cry it out and also at the same time, God spokes to me. Telling me not to give up. He know how I feel. Thanks to Elaine too. She tag me with some encouraging words. Really grateful with that.

Know what?! Ytd night I reach my mother place at 7 plus going 8. And I forgot to greet her happy new year!! See la!! Where to find such ridiculous daughter? Guess I'm the onl one who say 'I forgot to greet you'. So, this morning my grandma complain to my mum that 'ytd night your daughter never greet me CNY leh'. Then my mum ask me is it true that I didn't greet her. I say ya. Then got no choice have to greet her today. HAHA... SO paiseh lor.. Need my mum and an old lady to remind me about all this. K la.. Guess shall stop here. Bye!! TC!

Moody CNY

2008-02-06T23:48:00.000+08:00

Today, my mood is SUCKS!! Not in good mood at all. Don't know what is wrong with me. Frankly speaking, I don't feel happy or what after I got married. I don't like my 2 kids. I hate being tied down by them. I feel so F*** up! I don't know why. Can I want back my freedom? What can i do to get them back? I hate living here with THIS family. That STUPID LEE XIANG YONG is such an idiot! Throwing tantrums like a lady. He's more like a FEMALE than MALE. Staying at home. Doing nothing. Neither did he go to school nor working. Any woman who married him sure die! Seriously I really LOOK DOWN on him. He always scold my son. I hate my son too. Giving others a chance to scold or shout at him. STUPID!! He always never listen to others. I don't know why I have such child. I don't why God wanna give me such child. I don't like Gracia too. Frankly speaking, I don't intend to have the 2nd child. All this is because of STUPID LEE XIANG MING. He did it in purpose. He never discuss with me about having the 2nd child. Don't you think that it is so unfair to me? Why is this world so unfair? God say He is the rightous one. He say he is always fair. But why to me he is not? I already told God I don't want another child after Nicholas. I hate being tied down. But why? Since He said that his plan is always the best n perfect for us. But I don't feel any perfection about it. So what if Gracia and Nicholas is cute? They are only giving me troubles. So so so regret that I actually didn't go for abortion! I'm serious. So so so REGRET that I got married coz' of the RESPONSIBILITY and NOT coz' of TRUE LOVE. Now I'm feeling so down. The feeling is so hard for me to describe in words. Even if I cry it out also won't help much. Can anyone really know or understand how i feel? I think even Aunty Jenny also don't how I feel.

It's me again!

2008-02-05T15:26:00.000+08:00

Hohoho!! It's me again!! Here am I to update blog again!! Heez~~ Well, I'm kind of not in a very good mood. My laptop went nuts!! I don't know what happen to it. It just happen out of a sudden. The problem is there's no sound on the speaker and I try to use a ear-phone to see whether is it working with the help of the ear-phone. Unfortunately, no. So, I plug out the wired since it didn't help at all. But after doing that, the speaker just went nuts! I can't hear any songs but loud 'beeping' sound. So, i just shut down the laptop and see if it can stop that irritating sound. Again, i didn't. So, I just mute the speaker. Even if I didn't mute the speaker, once my hand is near the speaker the same thing will happen again. So fed up!! But what can i do? There's nothing I can do. So, let it be la!!

Today, Nicky was being sent back home from school. The reason is he has a pair of red eyes. So, his form teacher was worried that he might have sore eyes. So, she send him to the office and left him with the principle. Before I get there, they seems to enjoy each other's companied. His principle is so enjoy with his singing. LOL! Can tell that the principle likes him alot. A few teacher also enjoy chit-chatting with him. Haha~~ Thanks God for all this. Guess shall stop here. My little Gracia is crying so bitterly don't know for what. Guess she just want me to accompany her. Bye and take care! God bless!!

2008-02-04T16:37:00.000+08:00

Hey Hey.. Here I am again to update my blog. Hees~ Well, actually got nothing much to do on fri. By right i should be attending the 1st cell group. But by left, I didn't go coz of my hubby. He had to do his duty on that day. and nobody can help me look after my 2 kids. So got no choice, have to stay back and look after the 2 of them. Guess you all will be thinking how about my mother-in-law. Well, the nigth before, she already told me that she will be going out. Then, was thinking I'll be spending the night and sleeping alone. A word flash across my mind.. SIANZ!! But out of a sudden, Guan lin SMSing me. Sharing with me about her life in school on that day. And out of a sudden, an idea flash across my mind. ASKING GUAN LIN TO COME OVER HERE!!! Hmm... So i told her what's in my mind and she agreed BUT must get Aunty Jenny's permission first before she could carry out OUR decision. SO~ both of ask give Aunty Jenny a called. After telling her my lonely night at home, she actually allowed Guan Lin to come over. So, Guan lin came to my house straight after school.

But at first, I didn't ask her to spend a night here. Just like asking here to come here and chit-chatting with me.. Using my laptop to update her blog and all this. But as the time goes by, it starts to rain and she seems to be so lazy to get her foot out o my house. So, I told her the idea of spending a night here. But she's afraid that Aunty Jenny won't allow her. So, both of us give Aunty Jenny a few called. But nobody answered it. So, got no choice, we called Guan Lin's father. After telling his father about my lonely night, her father agreed to let her stay. But at the same time, we were afraid that Aunty Jenny might not allow her to stay. So we tried calling Aunty Jenny again. Yet, still nobody answer the called. So I send out a sms to Aunty Jenny. So got no choice, we have to wait for Aunty Jenny to call back after she saw the SMS. Think about half an hour to one hour time, Aunty Jenny called back. After telling her the reason why I want Guan Lin to spend a night here, she agreed to let her stay. So we spend our night watching youtube and chit-chatting. After that, both of us were tired and fall asleep. So the next day, I bring Guan Lin to have our breakfast at The Coffee Bean. We have the same set of breakfast, Brek O' Day. After we finish out breakfast, both of us actually forgot to take down the photo of our set meal. Then an idea came across my mind again. Took the photo at our breakfast. LOL. Though it's kind o lame~ but at least we are unique. LOL~ Guess shall stop here. Take care and all the best. Blessed day!!

Look!! After our breakfast.

2008-02-04T16:20:00.000+08:00

Look at my crazy little nicky. He is trying to deco himself. Handsome?!

It's Nicholas 3yr old b'day cake!!

Before candle being light-up.
After the candle being light-up.

Nicholas is so happy to have a shot with his cake. LOL

Nicholas cutting his b'day cake with the little help from his father.

happy but oso borin at the same time

2008-02-01T15:54:00.000+08:00

Hello everyone!! How's life? Aren't you guys gettin excited as Chinese New Year is around the corner?! Haha.... Well.. frankly speaking, I don't like! It doesn't matter whether i'm in my childhood, teenhood or motherhood!! Haha... 1st of all, I have got no place to go except for visiting houses to houses. 2nd, I don't like big crowds. 3rd, is that now aft married, i need to spend lots of money on clothes and red packets. Haha!! Well.. Actually the 3rd reason is just bullshitting. All the while, I'm spending lots n lots of money on my 2 kids. Doesn't matter whether is it during CNY or what. Hmm... Guess the 1st n 2nd reason should be words from the bottom of my heart. You people might think that I'm just lonely or 'gu pi' haha.. Coz seriously i don't crowds is because they will like to sk you some question which u don't like to hear. Keep asking me why is it that Nicky's skin is still nt yet recover la.. bla bla bla.. this and that... Seriously.. I don't like ot entertain people with such question. And also during CNY, people will gather around and gamble. I don't like it. Doesn't matter whether is majong or poker cards. I just don't like it. Guess my char is abit same as my father coz he hate gambling. He will only be the spectators but NEVER be a participant. Hmm.... ya... But being a spectator also won't last long coz he just got no interest in it. Guess this is what you all mean by like father like daughter!! Haha~~ bye!! God Blessed you n your family with a prosperous CNY!!

recent update

2008-02-01T15:07:00.000+08:00

wat a nice position!! (except for the armpit hair.. HEHE~) Like Father, Like Daughter!!

look at the Mei Mei!! she look so enjoy being carry into Kor Kor's arm!!

envy his eye lashes?! haha.. long rite!! look sexy.. weeUweet~~

look at his left leg!! he got nth to do. juz findin ways to espress his thoughts. LOL

look at his right leg. nice?!

look at his left arm! nice 'tattoo'..

look at his right arm!! he actually 'tattoo' all his limbs by himself!! talented artist..

hmm... sumtin is nt veri right wif his lips!!

his lips look funny?! am i colour blind or...?!

take a closer look!! yuck!!

wat an innocent look!!

look at her?! isn't her hairstlye look funny?!

look at dis cute little gal!! A smile of her's can melt my heart n take away my breath!!

look at dis? resemble of wat? (pig trotter) LOL my little gracia's leg!! wan a bite?!

nth to tok abt.. pics prove all!!

2008-01-16T17:04:00.001+08:00

Hello all!!! Long time no blog liao!! LOL.. Well.. Nothing to really talk about.. Juz that recently I'm really BZ with my Little Prince schooling and all this. Know what?! He actually beat his classmate. *sign* Don't know i should do to stop him from repeating the same mistake again?! urgh!! But anyway, spoken to Ps Flora about this matter. She give me some advise n teach me the DOs and DON'Ts. Well. Nvm.. Know God in control of all this thing. Sure that there's a way to help Nicky! hmm... Nothing to say about.. Just wanna share my pics with you people out there!! There it goes~~~

Nicky's School Dayz

2008-01-03T09:14:00.000+08:00

Hey!! Hey!! It's me again!! The one and only special woman!! Haha!! No lah!! Kust Kidding!! ^_^ Hmm... It has been quite sometime that I last update my blog!! Well, time flies... Thinking about the past.. Nicky is just a baby like my little Gracia. But now see him!! A big boy now!! Attending school already!! Haha!! Anyway, kinda excited coz today is the 2nd day of his school. been crying for 2 day. Yesterday and today. Keep wanting me to go inside the class with him!! He will tear down the classroom when the moment he saw me wasn't inside the class with him!! Haha!! and know what, today the teachers told me that he is a very talkative child!! LOL!! He has got my gens!! LOL!! (whisper: Last time in my report book, you can always find this few words 'talkative girl in class'. Don't let anyone know about it ok?! shhhhhh...........) And teacher told me that he snatch others toy. His action is fast n quick!! Can't tolerate him.. But thx God that all the teachers like him. Maybe for the time being.. LOL!!!

a story to share

2007-10-27T14:58:00.000+08:00

hi ppl!! i hve a story to share.. i find it quite interestin n sad.. i dunno hw will u guys feel aft readin it.. here it goes~~

.....My mom only had one eye. I hated her... she was such an embarrassment. She cooked for students & teachers to support the family. There was this one day during elementary school where my mom came to say 'hello' to me. I was so embarrassed! How could she do this to me?! I ignored her, threw her a hateful-look and ran out. The next day at school, one of my classmates said, "EEEE, your mom only has one eye!" I wanted to bury myself! I also wanted my mom to just disappear! I confronted her that day and said, "If you're only gonna make me a laughing stock, why don't you just die?!" My mom did not respond... I didn't even stop to think for a second about what I had said, because I was full of anger. I was oblivious to her feelings. I walked out of that house, and have nothing to do with her. So I studied real hard, got a chance to go abroad to study. Then, I got married. I bought a house of my own. I had kids of my own. I was happy with my life, my kids and the comforts. Then one day, my mother came to visit me. She hadn't seen me in years and she didn't even meet her grandchildren. When she stood by the door, my children laughed at her, and I yelled at her for coming over uninvited. I screamed at her, "How dare you come to my house and scare my children! GET OUT OF HERE NOW!!!" And to this, my mother quietly answered, "Oh, I'm so sorry. I may have gotten the wrong address," and she disappeared out of sight. One day, a letter regarding a school reunion came to my house. So I lied to my wife that I was going on a business trip. After the reunion, I went to the old shack just out of curiosity. My neighbors said that she died. I did not shed a single tears. They handed me a letter that she had wanted me to have. "My dearest son, I think of you all the time. I'm sorry that I came to your house and scared your children. I was so glad when I heard you were coming for the reunion. But I may not be able to even get out of bed to see you. I'm sorry that I was a constant embarrassment to you when you were growing up. You see........ when you were very little, you got into an accident, and lost one of your eyes. As a mother, I couldn't stand watching you having to grow up with one eye. So I gave you mine. I was so proud of my son who was seeing a whole new world for me, in my place, with that eye. With all my love to you, Your mother."....

Always tell someone that you love them because you never know what day will be their last, or your own. Always seek to resolve your problems or disagreements with loved ones because if either of you should passon before, the one who is left alive will have the rest of their life to ponder those unresolved feelings but will never find closure. And closure usually brings peace... Treat her the right way you should..

lonely days @ home

2007-10-26T02:33:00.000+08:00

hi guys.. hmm.. so broin durin dis few wks.. really veri bored man.. cnt go out.. nt even downstair.. unless there is a valid reason... my grandma den allow me to go out.. haiz.. but anway.. durin the borin days.. at least i still get a chance to celebrate my b'day wif my grandma, aunty jenny, sabby, shurong, guan lin & xiao feng.. they actually gve me a surprise.. nt mention abt the celebration.. i only notice tat sabby made lots of jelly on the nite b4 the celebration.. den the nxt day morin.. i woke up n i notice tat she is bz makin potato salad n my grandma is bz marinatin lots of chicken wing.. i was tinkin.. hmm... hw come.. i ask sabby hw come u aguys preparin to much tins? she told me tat my grandma's fren named dunno wat 'zhu' de is comin on the evenin time.. den i was like.. ok.. but do my grandma really need to prepare so many food juz to welcome her fren? but anyway.. i oso didn tink much.. so durin the evenin time whn aunty jenny n xiao feng reach my grandma place.. i was so.. surprise.. though the celebration is veri veri simple.. but really appreciate it.. they took bus frm AMK to Tampines juz to celebrate b'day for me.. and the journey is abt 2 - 3 hrs.. tat include waitin of the bus n dis n tat la.. really appreciate it.. Thx to Sabby n they all!! they bought me a cake. which is nw u all will get a chance to look at it later.. dun look good.. coz i guess the cake is bein shifted abit out of the plate.. guess durin the journey either aunty jenny or xiao feng accidentally swing it.. coz tat day is rainin quite heavily but anyway it taste really great!! n there's sum pics of nicky n gracia.. noe u ppl been missin nicky n gracia so much.. so i upload sum pics of them.. to keep u guys update.. here it goes~~

my 22nd b'day cake!!

my mummy!! look like kopitiam ah soh rite!! LOL!!

but will look funny la...

coz nvr seen a kopitiam ah soh wearin a

shower cap to serve customer!!

my fat boy riddin on his father's back!

naked shot 1!

naked shot 2!

naked shot 3!
(dun u guys agree wif me?! isn't he fat?!)

see my nicky holdin on to a "gun"

Look at hime!! so shy!! LOL

my cute little boy!!

surprise!!

mature boy!!

my sweet little bunny boy!!

*ATTENTION*

The pictures below will make you fall in love with her.

Please control ur emotions and feelings.

Thank you!

my precious gal, gracia!

who does she look more alike? mummy or daddy?

aft finish feedin her..

look at her?!

cryin so bitterly for the mummy!

(coz she's hungry.. )

look at her big eyes!!

Last pic.. though it has nth to do wif my baby gracia.. but is oso 1 of my fav...

my fav pet, BoBo..

passed away on Jan..

died of unknown reason

promise!

2007-10-16T00:40:00.000+08:00

hi guys!! as i'v prmoise u all tat i will upload Gracia's pics... here it goes!!

tat's her info!!

Gracis is juz 1 hr n 5 min old!!

We are nt a family until Nicky join in the pic!!

Daddy n Gracia

mummy & Gracia

Hamper & the delivery man

The Card on the hamper

Msg inside the card

couldn't take pic of the hamper
coz my hubby is so eager to open up all the hamper.
so i can only took the pic of the msg.

Shi En in mummy's arm!!

Shi En smilin in her dream or in reality?

Look at her? isn't she sweet?

Kor Nicholas & Mei Gracia

Mummy, kor Nicky n Her!!

Daddy, Kor Nicky & Gracia

Happy Family!! Daddy, Mummy, Kor Nicholas & Mei Gracia

hello!!

2007-10-08T15:35:00.000+08:00

hi guys!! long time no update my blog liao wor.. haha... finally!! my baby Shi En is out to see dis world!! receive lots of gift frm church members... frenz.. n my hubby's frenz... n my grandma gve my little girl a nick name.. called 'nu wang' haha... coz whn i gve birth to my 1st child who is nw the most popular child in church.. Nicholas.. nobody visit me or gve me gift.. haha.... den my girl... quite a number of ppl visit me n bought me gift.. . so my grandma say she is like a queen!! haha... well.. actually she is kind of tiny... she weighs 2.2kg only!! can u imagine.. so got no choice.. in order to make her grow stronger n faster.. i hve to fed her wif formula n breastfeed her... but anyway... i already decide to breastfeed her.. so cannot say no choice la... anyway.. she is doin well.. drinkin well on both milk n water but juz tat she got jaundice... n today my hubby bring her to the polyclinic.. her jaundice raise up to 204.. hopin n prayin hard tat her jaundice will disappeared by 7th day of birth.. n oso it wont reaches to 250.. so.. prayin hard hard hard.... n oso she fail her hearin test.. so i need to bring her back to KKH on 5 nov to check her hearin again... hmm.. dis gal really gve me lots of trouble.. but i believe tat wif god.. everytin will be fine!! as He got all tins in hand.. so dun really worry much ba... hmm.. stil haven uploads sum of the pics i taken of her n the gifts... will do tat once my hubby get me my USB.. miss the church so much.. nicky miss the church too... ytd i didn ask sabby to bring him to church.. n he told me tat he wan to go church to dance n sing.. i told him ovr already... he look sad.. he told me tat den other day den go hor... i say ya.... haha... didn expect him to actually rmb tat we still hve to go church... so cute of him.. n he love his sister veri much... every mornin once he wake up.. the 1st tin he do is to check his sister.. if his sister is nt ard.. he will question me.. whr is mei mei.. whr she go.. n he dun allow others to take his mei mei away... he got angry whn aunty Angeline n aunty Helen joked wif him n say.. can i bring ur mei mei hme.. neither did he ans them nor look at them.. they ask him until he say.. cannot.. he oso dun allow them to carry mei mei.. he say mummy carry mei mei.. he is so cute n lovin... den whn they are abt to leave.. they ask nicky to say byed to them.. he dun wan.. den my grandma ask him.. y dun u say bye bye wif the aunties.. izzit they wanna take ur mei mei away u angry.. he say ya... haha.. didn really expect him to love his mei mei so much.. really thx God... haha.... guess i shall stop here.. i'm tired ler.... gtg rest...........

Happy! Excited!

2007-09-28T15:38:00.000+08:00

hey hey.. it's time for my blog again.. hmm... ytd went to 'visit' my gynae n oso do some scannin.. he told me tat he will be seein me in 1 wks time.. so which is on 4th Oct. but.. he wan me to admit on the 5th Oct.. den i was shock.. wonderin y he wan me to admit so fast.. den he told me.. coz by tat time, i'm 38 wks preg. so he expect to deliver my baby out on tat week.. den i make a request.. tat can i admit on the 8th Oct? he ask me y? i told him.. coz i'm celebratin sabby's at the chalet.. den my gynae laugh.. he say ok.. up to u but provided tat there no contraction durin dis period of time.. den i told him ok... so i keep prayin to God tat pls let me finish the celebration den deliver my baby gal out.. keep prayin hard.. n i noe our God is the God tat will listen to His children's prayer... haha.... hve faith in Him.. as He can do all tins!! yeah! so on 8th Oct.. mornin 9.30am.. i will be goin to KKH to wait for my little Shi En to be out liao.. haha... pls pray for me if anyone of u had came across my blog.. haha.. for a smooth delivery n ask God to gve me strength... as i no need to use any epidural to ease my labour pain.. n i believe tat 2yrs ago i didn use it whn i delivered my nicky.. so nw i oso no need to use it!! ask God to gve me strength.. but 1 tin funny.. durin tat period of time.. i already backslided.. but durin the pain.. i noe hw to cry out to Jesus.. so wat the ' mi lu bing' said is true.. everybody will use God like a santa claus.. 'whn i need help.. i cry out to u.. u muz help me.. no matter wat..' dis is a really selfish tinkin... so.. nvr be like me.. haha... cry out to Him whn in need.. always cry out to Him as n whn.. but provided u muz hve a real close relationship wif him.. yeah!! shall stop here.. take care n God bless!! ^_^

sad

2007-09-22T21:16:00.000+08:00

hmm... out of a sudden feelin sad.... sad coz i cnt go to the 1 day couple camp on 29/09/07... haiz...... my husband dun allow me to go.. aiya.. he oso dun wan to go la.. but at 1st he agree to go wif me de.. but due to last week incident.. den he dun wanna go n oso dun allow me to go.. coz he scare the same tin might happen again.. as my baby's head is down... can come out anytime.. n sum more on the 29/09/07.. my baby is 37 weeks old... juz nice if my baby is out on tat weeks.. coz the gynae told me tat it's normal for the baby to be out whn he/she is 37 weeks old.. n last week my baby is only juz 35 weeks old.. gynae is afraid tat if the baby is out durin tat week.. her lung is nt mature enough.. so i pray to God.. askin God keep my baby in my womb until she is 40 weeks old.. LOL.. nt say die die muz 40 weeks old la.. juz tat.. her internal organs are all mature enough whn she can come to see dis world.. i noe i cnt do anytin but to pray really hard to God.. coz wat man cannot be done, everytin is possible thru Him.. n i noe is i say i'm nt worried.. are all bullshit!! haha... hw can a mother nt worryin abt their own children.. unless they are cold blooded... frankly speakin.. my little gal bring me lots of worryin... but i thx God for tat too.. coz God is tryin to sharpen me.. frm a pcs of metal to a double-edged sword... i oso thx God for tat coz i can spread His miracles way to my frenz.. haha... prayin hard to God to take away all my worries n burden... n i noe God is always there for me n listenin to my prayers.. Thx Lord!!

2007-09-22T00:34:00.000+08:00

hmm... juz nw went to 'visit' sabby's blog.. i saw her upload our photo.. out of a sudden.. my past flash across my mind.. time really flies!! so many tins happen in the past few years.. but thx God for the past few years.. if nt.. i guess i'm still loiterin ard in the world out there.. doin tins tat really make Him feel sad n angry.. really grateful tat God is willin to accept me once again.. Love u Lord!!

my sec school dayz!! fun but sad!!

but wat is past let it be.. anyway, can u spot me?! haha!!

tat's me & Sabrina!! Taken whn i'm still young n wildful!!

me & him.. Taken on 19/10/2003.

Tat's B4 we got married..

(dun ask me y i love a person w/o JOY. Ask God instead.. Coz He gve him to me!! haha!!!)

my dayz in ITE!! can u spot me?!

My ITE Dayz!! can u spot me again?

Look at this 3 uth frm our church!!

Time flies!! They are totally diff!!

(But Xiao Feng is still so IMMATURE la!!)

But nvm!! Try to see him by using God's eyes!!

Slowly u will like him!! Hor?! Xiao Feng!!

Vian, Mr Kok & Me!! At Hong Kong!!

Tat's me & Vian!! We're at Hong Kong!!

Tat time my tiny little Nicholas is already in me!!

Look at Nicky!! He's juz few hours right aft birth!!

Look at hime!! so Kawaii!! Taken whn he is few weeks old..

Nicky hate ppl to took off his clothin since young!!

but thx God.. nw he love to shower!!

Dis photo is taken whn he is 1 month old!!

Look at him!! A person w/o JOY!!

Look at me!! So Auntie n pale!!

Look at Nicholas!! So cute!!

Taken whn Nicky is few months old

*A Wedding Ceremony of ChaCha & Bobby*

my stayin in KK hospital

2007-09-20T23:45:00.000+08:00

past few days stayin at KK Hospital.. so borin ovr there.. got nth to do.. juz eat n slp.. haha.. but really grateful lor.. though life is borin ovr there.. but durin the stay.. i really encounter God's grace n healin hands.. He listens to all the prayers.. really thx God.. n thx to those who pray so hard for me n my baby gal.. THX A MILLION!!

my breakfast on 16/09/2007. Fried Kway Diao & Hot Milo!!

my breakfast!! on 16/09/2007. A closer look.. Looked yucky but taste nt bad la..

my pcs of 'log' look so serious!!

me n my hubby.. on 16/09/2007

my breakfast!!17/09/2007. Salty Bee Hoon Soup..
my lunch on 17/09/2007!!

before i admitted to hopsital

2007-09-20T22:46:00.000+08:00

BeFoRe I admitted to KK hospital, I took some pics of my grandma & Nicky!! And i took it wif them too!! Ready to see them?! HeRe it GoEs~

Nicky & Sabby

Sabby is happy to gve me a kick on my face!! *sob* *sob*

wu~~ whose feet? or leg? make a guess ba~ haha...

wat i hve learn in cell grp

2007-09-08T01:39:00.000+08:00

hehe... time for me to update liao.. haha.... few hours ago.. went for my friday cell group.. learn a fewtins frm my elders.. wat i've learn abt is ppl who hve wisdom.. are those who nvr ask 'why' whn they are told to do tins.. and they always observe all tins ard them.. even if they wanna noe 'why'.. they will wait patiently for the ans... i really took my hat off on such ppl.. coz these are ppl who God really like... nvr ask God 'why'... juz pray n pray n pray.. wait n wait n wait.. coz waitin is a veri torturin feelin.. i go thru dis b4.. so i noe hw it feels.. but if we really wan to get wisdom n more blessin frm God.. learn to wait n pray.. hve a real close relationship wif God.. He will ans all our prayers n gve us wat we ask for... but wait PATIENTLY.....

a joke to share.. ytd guan lin n shurong came to my hse.. n b4 they came.. guan lin keep tellin me tat she cnt tag me.. i was tinkin ' y? it cnt be..' until today she came to my hse n she ask me ' jie.. hw to tag u.. hw come i cnt tag u..' den i show her hw to tag me.. aft showin her.. we both LOL... noe wat make us laugh like crazy? she didn noe tat there is a scroll inside the box... for her to scroll down until she can see the 'name', 'email/url' and ' msg'.. funny rite.. oh my gooddness... she is really blur man... tat's y i say.. pray until she can tag me... pray until God gve her wisdom to figure out y she cnt tag me... ^_^

2007-09-08T01:10:00.000+08:00

B&B!! Beauty & the BEAST!! LOL!! taken on 4/8/2004

2007-09-08T01:04:00.000+08:00

tat's me n my most beloved hubby... took it on 23/10/05!! sweet? lol... guess i look more pretty den him.. hehe...

2007-09-08T00:58:00.000+08:00

LOOK AT THIS GUY!! ISN'T HE LOOK FAMILIAR? HE TOOK PART IN THE ' XIAO HUA XIAO CAO' OF NYP!! TAY JUN HAO!!! HAHA..........

Creepy encounter...

2007-09-01T22:35:00.000+08:00

hmmm..... i juz came back frm my grandpa hse... noe wat.. me n my sister saw 'tin' she saw it at my uncle room.. i saw it in the livin room... is a black figure.. guess is a little child.. i dunno whr it come frm la..

it happen whn i was abt to go off wif my sister.. i was sittin in the livin room.. i was keepin my mp3.. den while i was windin up the wire of my headphone.. i was a black shadow comin towards me.. den aft tat i feel sumbody touch my waist... at 1st i tot is my dog bobby... but i keep lookin ard.. tryin to find him.. but i dun see him.. so i tot he was hidin under the arm chair.. so i bend down n look under the chair.. he was nt there.. oh my gooddness rite.. haha.... den aft i finish packin all my tins.. i walk into y grandpa's room.. i saw bobby was layin on the floor beside his bed.. aft i saw tat.. i can cfm tat i saw 'tin'... well.. it didn freak me out anw.. guess juz use to it.. juz dun like it lor.. for nth come n touch me.. idiot!

but dis time.. really freak me out... while i was walkin and tokin to my sister.. abt wat we saw at my grandpa hse... frm the stairs towards the cover walk way... i saw sumtin tat really freak me out..... noe wat ??........... i was a flyin cockroach!!!!!!!!! flyin ard man... really freak me out man... i run away man... but nw.. come to tink abt it.... i find myself veri stupid... saw n kena touch by tat 'tin'.. i still can stay veri calm... tokin... pretendin nth happen... but i saw a fly cockroach... i can run away... stupid rite.. aiyo... buay tahan myself lor.... hehe...... stop here liao ler ba... need to shower liao... hehe......

KL ar!! KL!!

2007-09-01T01:34:00.000+08:00

hmm........ today went out meet my fren again.. Mr KL n Miss Soch In.. well.. aft meetin them.. i realise tat KL ar.. is kinda funny.. he is tat kind of guy ar.. will try all his best to make all his frens ard him to be happy.. even if u wan him to suffer.. he oso willin to do so.. i dunno wat word to use to describe him.. cannot say stupid.. guess is his char ba.. God creat everybody differently ma.. he nvr go n tink abt it whether izzit all frenz worth for him to do such sacrifice... n if a person really treat u like a fren ar.. will tat person like to treat u like a fool or like a clown.. dis is wat i see frm him lor.. i keep tellin him.. "dun always take others prob.. as ur own prob.." he keep tellin me:" no.. i didn.." c'mon.. i'm nt a blind woman lor.. God gve me wisdom de leh.. aiyo... he keep tellin me he scare will suffer depression... haiz.. i dunno.. if he still choose to take others prob as his own prob.. sumhow sum day he will suffer frm it lor.. nt i curse him lor.. coz depression start wif sumbody who's imagination is veri good.. LOL... stop here ler ba.. haha....

NeW ChAnGe!!

2007-08-31T16:29:00.000+08:00

PhEw!! finally man!! i noe hw to change my template liao.... wow... really thx God for the wisdom He gve me!! YeAh!!! but it seems like i waste in wisdom on doin such useless stuff leh.. haha... really happy tat u change the template by my own self.. w/o the help of anybody.. the feelin is like....... YYYEEEEEEAAAAHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!! haha... 'cheng jiu gan' !! hehe.....

ah sho?? jie jie??

2007-08-27T16:50:00.000+08:00

hmm... kinda sianz leh... haha.......... well... nth much to say lor.. hmm.... noe wat.. ytd aft church.. went back hme wif sophia.. we took MRT together.. so whn i was abt to alighted.. i told nicky.. say bye bye to jie jie... he went to say it to other ppl.. whom i dunno... den sophia and i start to laugh.. i say.. i mean jie jie is sophia jie jie... nt other jie jie... den he look at sophia.. n say byed to her.. so nw den i noe tat nicky nvr regard sophia as jie jie.. guess he keep callin her ah sho for too long liao.. so to him.. sophia is an ah sho.. nt jie jie... i told sophia.. den she oso agreed wif wat i said.. haha.. u guys didn see the scenario.. if nt guess u guys will too LOL wif us... haha...

ExTeReMeLy BaD MooD

2007-08-25T00:00:00.000+08:00

veri bad mood nw.. really feel like whackin sum1.. dunno y... really dun like tat person.. guess i always see the same tin lor.. tins tat make me angry de lor.. n he no i dun like it.. but he juz like to do it.. really veri angry... fed up.. really fed up... sianz......... really bad mood...

ovr9 prayin..

2007-08-24T14:28:00.000+08:00

hmmm.... to nite goin for the prayers meetin... hmm.. kinda of sad... coz cnt stay for the ovr9 meetin... hmm.. like miss a chance to hve a close realtionship wif God.. but i noe God understand me de... coz my nicky nt use of stayin ovrnite at a new place.. he keep wantin me to carry him for the whole nite.. haiz.. n if he slp.. he wan to slp wif me.. but i go there is to pray.. nt to slp leh... haiz.. so sianz... i stay for the 1st ovr9 meetin.... really got lots of feelin.... dunno hw to describe.. if u wan to noe.. stay lor.. go n try it out urself!! ^_^ shall stop here liao ba.. still at my mother hse.. but will be back soon ba.... need to go back sembawang to get sum stuff n prepare for prayer meetin... bbbbbyyyyyeeeeeeeeeee~

hmm... ExCiTeD oR NeRvOuS??

2007-08-22T17:04:00.000+08:00

well.. well... dis week.. i'm 32 weeks preg.. which is means i'm 8 mths preg liao.. hmm.. my gynae told me tat my gal might be out anytime.. haha.. i dunno.. hopin she wont be out tat fast.. coz i still wanna attend the romance forever couple 1 day camp which is @ sentosa.. den aft tat.. i still wanna celebrate my mei's b'day @ the chalet wif her de.. coz she scare ghost la.. wan me stay there n acc her la.. haha.... "mei!! muz hve faith wif God.. we are the children of God.. should be the ghost scare of us.. nt we scare of them!!" ^_^ pray to God tat aft her chalet i den go gve birth.. hehe... dunno izzit God's plan la.. if it is His plan too.. den i'm sure tins will happen so-called smoothly accordin to His n my plan lor.. hmm... dunno leh... sounds like fightin wif the timin leh.. dunno leh... wonderin hw my gal gal look like.. look like me or siang ming.. hopin tat he wont be like siang ming.. coz his attitude ar.. haiz.. ppl who noe me oso noe him well la.. hor.. no need to say much de la.. haha....

dis few day.. alot of tins came across my mind... tins happen so fast.. i married to my hubby for 3 yrs liao.. noe him for 1 yr plus.. so altogether we been thru together for 4 yrs plus liao... though we married for 3yrs but still a veri young couple lor.. still got many many to learn frm others.. seein my nicky growin frm an infant to a 2 and a half yr old boy boy.. nxt yr will be attendin his pre-nursary liao.. guess i hve been keepin him by my side for too long.. i'm afraid of dis n tat.. scare ppl might bully him due to his skin.. scare teacher might nt like him.. scare dis n tat.. haiz.. muz ask God to take away all dis negative tinkin... coz seriously.. he nvr leave me b4.. even if he did.. at least i noe he is stayin wif my family members.. nt alone in sch or wat.. haiz................ better dun keep signin.. will affect my baby gal.. God!! help me!! i can only leave nicky into Ur hand!! coz in bible u say u are anywhere everywhere... den sooner or later.. my gal will be joinin us.. so scare tat i dun hve time for my nicky... haiz... so scare i might throw my temper at nicky.. God.. really muz help me.. take away all my negative tots.. dun care liao la.. cast all my anxiety on Him.. coz He cares for me... tat is His promise!! hmm.. God.. help me!! i can do everytin thru U who gve me strength!! Yeah!!!! tink shall stop here liao ler.. need to go out to my mother place liao... bbbbbyyeeeeeeeeeeeeee~~

ThAnKs God!!

2007-08-21T23:58:00.000+08:00

hmmm... juz came back abt half an hour ago... juz nw meet my old fren.. Kwang Liang & Soch In!! gossip abt KL's fren la.. dis n tat la.. noe wat.. all the while i tot gossipin is gals hobby.. but didn expect tat KL, a GUY.. oso has dis kind of hobby.. really Oh My Goodness!! but anyway.. since it is HIM who date us out and gossip wif us.. so we juz gossip wif him lor.. haha.. den my stupid hubby joined us at ard 10 plus... (might as well dun come rite!! bo liao rite!!) actually he wont be so late de.. all dis thx to his fren la.. wed class change to tue n got test oso didn sms him n let him noe.. dunno izzit his attitute got prob tat make others dun wish to sms him or his fren forgot la.. haiz.. no responsibility!! teacher dun hve.. student oso dun hve de la.. we go sch follow teachers example de ma.. haha... rite?! anyway.. stop tinkin abt angry tins.. let's tok abt happy issue!! today aftnoon went for another scanned.. as it was request by gynae... last week did a scannin.. and the result is abit nt good la.. so my gynae wan me to go for another scannin lor.. sianz.. hate waitin.. coz normally scannin need to wait veri long de.. but today's scannin is fast.. as i'm the 1st patient to go for dis so-called special scan lor.. but the send my report veri slow lor.. den make me wait for abt an hour for my report to be delivered to my gynae.. sianz leh.. den my nicky!! mischevious kids!! run abt.. make noise.. makin frens.. ( aiya.. his fren are all those aunties n uncles de la.. sweeper oso can la.. guess he is juz too frenly liao ba.. hmm...) noe wat!! really Thx God!! He is always there for His children!! i prayed for all the so-called underweight of my baby gal to be gone.. but today's result has got improvement!! though it didn went off.. but at least it has improvement!! God really hear our prayers!! thx Him a million!! really grateful... i dunno hw to express in words... juz really grateful!! Love You Lots, LoRd!!!! MuAcKz!!!

TiReD!!

2007-08-20T14:42:00.000+08:00

juz finishin findin name fro my baby gal... my eyes are tired.. really tired... been findin her name frm 11 plus till 2pm.. phew!! finally got some ideas of wat i christian name i wanna gve her.. but still need to pray 1st.. coz God gve me dis baby.. He already gve her a name.. so i wanna ask God is dis the name u wanna gve her? haha.... guess shalls top here... so tired......

finally!!

2007-08-19T23:59:00.000+08:00

yeah!! finally i learn something abt my blog liao.. phew! thx to jian hui for ur patients n guidance!! so patiently teach me thru msn.. haha... and oso thx to my mei.. she help me hw to add cbox... though my cbox is at the bottom.. looks funny.. but still grateful for her help!! thx alot!!! ^_^

fireworks!!

2007-08-19T22:49:00.001+08:00

wow... so long didn login my blog liao wor... ytd went to marina bay wif my hubby n son...wich is on sat 18/08/2007.... coz we promise our boy tat we will bring him to watch the fireworks... well.. the fireworks iz indeed nice.. but kinda wasted coz it wont last long.. while watchin the fireworks.. alot of tins came across my mind... was tinkin... a human life span is oso like fireworks too.. is depend whether u wan it to be colourful or juz plain colours.. of coz everybody wan it to be colourful.. but are u willin to sacrifice abit of ur timin to make it colourful... but oso at tat period of time.. i pray to God.. i told God tat i wan my life to be as colourful as the fireworks.. as in i can make everyone ard me happy.. spreadin ur gospel to as many as possible.. i noe it is hard for me to do it by myself.. but i noe i can do everytin thru Him who gves me strength... Amen!!

HeLLo!

2007-06-21T04:02:00.000+08:00

well.. tis is the first time i have my own blog! hmm... kinda excited &.. actually nt really that excited... juz.... hmmm... dunno... dun really noe wat to say n tok abt.. haha... actually, i creat tis blog is bcoz of my cousins.. saw them been tryin hard to creat a nice blog.. look fun.. so i juz wanna try out the fun too.. haha.. guess shall stop here.. will try to add more interestin story abt me..