Hey hey!!! It's me again!! Hohoho!!! Well, today I encounter God's peace. The story is like this. Today, I went to Sembawang BLK 400+ to rent TVB drama series. So after that, we went over to Sun Plaza to have out high-tea at MOS burger resturant. While he is ordering food, I bring Nicky to the ladies. He want to pee. So, I bring my Adidas handbag along with me. While waiting for him to finish his business, I left my bag above the toilet bowl where there is a small little space for us to put our things. After he finish his business, I actally forgotten to take my bag with me. So I just walk out of the cubicle and bring Nicky to wash his hand. But i notice something is there's a girl standing outside the cubicle. She was about to enter that cubicle but after she look around, she actually stand outside the cubicle. At first, I was thinking 'why this girl so funny? Don't go in? Stand outside the cubicle to SMS people? What a funny person?' But actually I'm the one who is funny la! Forgot to take the bag. So I just walk out of the ladies and join my hubby. After we finish the food, we left the resturant. While walking towards the 7-11, my hubby ask me about my bag. I told him i left it inside the resturant coz' i remember wrongly. But after he went back to the resturant to check it, he didn;t see anything. It was then I remember that i left it inside the ladies. So i went back to check it. My bag is GONE!!! But know what? I don't feel anxious about it. Just feel that.. hmmm.... Peace. that's all I can say. I thank God for giving me the peace and wisdom to let me know how to handle it. So, I went to the NPP to make a report. The police ask me about the IMEI no. I told him that I didn have it with me. But I save it under the Sony Ericcson website. So he told me to go home and check it out aft that give him a call. Once I reach home, I check the IMEI and give him a call. On the other hand my hubby is helping me to call all the DBS bank, singtel and NTUC. Coz' I need to block all my cards. Though I'm not a rich person but just to play safe. After doing all the neccessory things. I go and do my stuff.. watching my TVB series drama. And I nearly fall asleep. While watching TV, the NPP officer called my home and inform me that somebody came and make a Lost and Found report. And they believe that the bag belongs to me. So my hubby and I went down to the NPP again to check out all the items. And YES! It belong to me!! I thank God that he not only watch over but also our belonging. Thanks God that all my items remain the same. Nothing lost. But that person who took my bag he/she actually use my HP to call the SMRT cab and he/she even try to make a video call to the church office! At that very moment!! a words came across my mind.. CRAZY!!

Hello everybody!! hmm... Feeling better now after my last blog. coz' I cry it out and also at the same time, God spokes to me. Telling me not to give up. He know how I feel. Thanks to Elaine too. She tag me with some encouraging words. Really grateful with that.

Know what?! Ytd night I reach my mother place at 7 plus going 8. And I forgot to greet her happy new year!! See la!! Where to find such ridiculous daughter? Guess I'm the onl one who say 'I forgot to greet you'. So, this morning my grandma complain to my mum that 'ytd night your daughter never greet me CNY leh'. Then my mum ask me is it true that I didn't greet her. I say ya. Then got no choice have to greet her today. HAHA... SO paiseh lor.. Need my mum and an old lady to remind me about all this. K la.. Guess shall stop here. Bye!! TC!

Today, my mood is SUCKS!! Not in good mood at all. Don't know what is wrong with me. Frankly speaking, I don't feel happy or what after I got married. I don't like my 2 kids. I hate being tied down by them. I feel so F*** up! I don't know why. Can I want back my freedom? What can i do to get them back? I hate living here with THIS family. That STUPID LEE XIANG YONG is such an idiot! Throwing tantrums like a lady. He's more like a FEMALE than MALE. Staying at home. Doing nothing. Neither did he go to school nor working. Any woman who married him sure die! Seriously I really LOOK DOWN on him. He always scold my son. I hate my son too. Giving others a chance to scold or shout at him. STUPID!! He always never listen to others. I don't know why I have such child. I don't why God wanna give me such child. I don't like Gracia too. Frankly speaking, I don't intend to have the 2nd child. All this is because of STUPID LEE XIANG MING. He did it in purpose. He never discuss with me about having the 2nd child. Don't you think that it is so unfair to me? Why is this world so unfair? God say He is the rightous one. He say he is always fair. But why to me he is not? I already told God I don't want another child after Nicholas. I hate being tied down. But why? Since He said that his plan is always the best n perfect for us. But I don't feel any perfection about it. So what if Gracia and Nicholas is cute? They are only giving me troubles. So so so regret that I actually didn't go for abortion! I'm serious. So so so REGRET that I got married coz' of the RESPONSIBILITY and NOT coz' of TRUE LOVE. Now I'm feeling so down. The feeling is so hard for me to describe in words. Even if I cry it out also won't help much. Can anyone really know or understand how i feel? I think even Aunty Jenny also don't how I feel.