♥ Wednesday, 22 August 2007 ♥
well.. well... dis week.. i'm 32 weeks preg.. which is means i'm 8 mths preg liao.. hmm.. my gynae told me tat my gal might be out anytime.. haha.. i dunno.. hopin she wont be out tat fast.. coz i still wanna attend the romance forever couple 1 day camp which is @ sentosa.. den aft tat.. i still wanna celebrate my mei's b'day @ the chalet wif her de.. coz she scare ghost la.. wan me stay there n acc her la.. haha.... "mei!! muz hve faith wif God.. we are the children of God.. should be the ghost scare of us.. nt we scare of them!!" ^_^ pray to God tat aft her chalet i den go gve birth.. hehe... dunno izzit God's plan la.. if it is His plan too.. den i'm sure tins will happen so-called smoothly accordin to His n my plan lor.. hmm... dunno leh... sounds like fightin wif the timin leh.. dunno leh... wonderin hw my gal gal look like.. look like me or siang ming.. hopin tat he wont be like siang ming.. coz his attitude ar.. haiz.. ppl who noe me oso noe him well la.. hor.. no need to say much de la.. haha....
dis few day.. alot of tins came across my mind... tins happen so fast.. i married to my hubby for 3 yrs liao.. noe him for 1 yr plus.. so altogether we been thru together for 4 yrs plus liao... though we married for 3yrs but still a veri young couple lor.. still got many many to learn frm others.. seein my nicky growin frm an infant to a 2 and a half yr old boy boy.. nxt yr will be attendin his pre-nursary liao.. guess i hve been keepin him by my side for too long.. i'm afraid of dis n tat.. scare ppl might bully him due to his skin.. scare teacher might nt like him.. scare dis n tat.. haiz.. muz ask God to take away all dis negative tinkin... coz seriously.. he nvr leave me b4.. even if he did.. at least i noe he is stayin wif my family members.. nt alone in sch or wat.. haiz................ better dun keep signin.. will affect my baby gal.. God!! help me!! i can only leave nicky into Ur hand!! coz in bible u say u are anywhere everywhere... den sooner or later.. my gal will be joinin us.. so scare tat i dun hve time for my nicky... haiz... so scare i might throw my temper at nicky.. God.. really muz help me.. take away all my negative tots.. dun care liao la.. cast all my anxiety on Him.. coz He cares for me... tat is His promise!! hmm.. God.. help me!! i can do everytin thru U who gve me strength!! Yeah!!!! tink shall stop here liao ler.. need to go out to my mother place liao... bbbbbyyeeeeeeeeeeeeee~~
perfection,5:04 pm
